Sexual immorality

There are some things that I did in this life that left me with so much condemnation and shame and guilt that I didn’t want to discuss them with the Lord… so He brought them up anyway! Sheesh! Some book I read once said that our life is like a large house with many rooms, and we have as much Jesus as areas of our lives that we give to Him. Some people give their lives to Jesus but not the room with the safe in it, they may let Him have 10% of that room that holds their money but never more than that. Some people give their lives to Jesus but keep the door shut on their sex lives past and present. It is hard to open that door because it is often locked with guilt shame and condemnation.

The apostle paul wrote:
Flee fornication. Every sin that a man doeth is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body. 1 Cor 6:18

It is somehow easier for me to confess to Jesus my sin if it is stealing, lying or cheating than any sexual sin. Sexual sin has a different kind of shame and guilt, it is much deeper. The thing with all sin is that He already knows. When we realize that He already knows it all, we are left standing naked before Him looking desperately for a fig leaf. When Adam and Eve sinned they were ashamed for Him to see them. I had so much intense shame that even talking about sex or nakedness at all was difficult, so the Lord started showing me first what was intended for our sex lives.

Then He showed me things about certain types of sexual immorality. I remember one time writing: I spend the night feeling horrible because I am doing something in my life that is wrong and I have no ability to quit doing it. I hate myself and yet I cannot change. In the morning I find that Jesus is alive! I find that as surely as if Jesus was walking down my street I can run to Him and He says “what will thou that I should do for thee?” And I say to Him, “Lord, have mercy on me a sinner, I am sinning in this area and God said not to do it. My heart is so convicted, I am so ashamed that I cannot look at your face, but I cannot change myself no matter how I try. Jesus, it says in the bible that you came to do God’s will, please do His will in me, please fix me so I can stop sinning! And He smiles and says “yes, I will”

Sometimes He delivers me instantly, sometimes He begins a work in me that is not so fast, but He deals with the things that are causing me to choose the sinful action. Sometimes God moves mountains one pebble at a time, but He always has the victory, He always delivers me. Even if you aren’t ready to repent of sexual immorality I hope you will read the next blog posts on sexuality and discover what God thinks of you, you may be surprised to find that He truly does love you, no matter what you have done!